Grandma

    So I know last week I spoke about how I feel like I take things for granted. To make it all worse, I find out that my grandmother is really sick. I'm not too close to her or my dads side of the family, but just finding out that she was really sick mad me really sad. One of the things why my grandmother and I aren't close is because well she's very old school and she's not a very affectionate person so even if we would go to her house she wouldn't even hug us or anything really. I wish I had a really close relationship with her but I don't and I feel like it's a little too late. But yet again I feel like it's never too late. I don't know how I'm feeling. I don't want to think about her actually dying, but I know I have to mentally prepare myself for the worst. I guess I feel bad because out of my 22 years of life I've never been close with her I don't have many memories with her. I wish I could go back in time and spend a lot more time with her. Sorry that's all I got this week I just don't feel like writing much.